Disconnected

 Love isnt the same concept it was many years ago. Time changes everything and your perspective and what exactly you feel changes over time. Also other things become more important. Priorities change. 

And now I look at all of you, and even though I would like to say I love you all or at least I love one of you. Once again I want to let you be. I want to let me be. Once again I dont want to dive into anything, once again I dont feel I have the energy for any of this. So I clock out. I stop thinking about any of you. I could be angry at myself but I am not. I dont care. I dont care anymore. And not hurting feels good and bad at the same time. I disconected something in me, that I am not sure if I will ever be able to connect again. 

What I know is that I am ready for a new year.

AR